I tend to enjoy the known quantities of my day. My children go to school, I do my work, get things done at home, etc., go get them from school, go to whatever practices or events they need to attend, have dinner, do homework, read, and go to bed. I like structure. I like the KNOWN. I am extremely organized. I get upset when I go for an item, say a pair of scissors or some tape to wrap a present, and said items are not where they are supposed to be. My family says to me constantly, "Mom, do you know where my (random item) is?" The answer is always, "Yes, yes I do." Because I have either seen it recently and made a mental note of it, or I have been the one to put the item in it's designated spot. I like reliability, in myself and others.
Now, before you go thinking I am the most uptight person on the planet, (I'm really not), hear me out. I say these things because although I am wired to be in order, I also have an adventurous side. However, these two enjoy teasing and taunting one another in my brain.
I have recently been faced with a big decision to make and I find that these two parts of my personality are having quite a bit of fun with each other. The part of my brain that knows what is coming and is comfortable wants to stay put and make no changes. The adventurous part of me is nagging and saying, "Come on! This will be so much fun. It's time for a change." It's exhausting, quite frankly.
However, I feel myself listening more and more to my adventurous side. I know that the things I need to rely on will still be there: my husband's love, my children's joy, my friend's who care for me. These are the things that truly matter. With those things in tact, I believe I will let my adventurous side win this time. (It usually does ;-)
